Today I had my second visit and I was able to see the baby (about the size of a butter bean) and hear the heartbeat!! That was crazy. It definitely hit home. My estimated due date is February 13th---a Valentine's baby!
So, there are several things in my life that have changed. First of all, we decided not to take on the responsibility of a puppy, for obvious reasons. I was so distressed over this, because I felt like I'd be letting Tanner down. However, I emailed the girl that's been in charge of everything, and she said that they were observing him, and had determined that he would do better in a home with another dog. So that all worked out really well, and we can fully focus on ONE child!
Secondly, HGTV has said that because of their shooting schedule, I won't be used for the episode that we had originally talked about. However, they're keeping me on file for future episodes. I consider this the best of both worlds, because I didn't have to be in a state of panic about my house, but I might be used in the future. So that's pretty exciting.
Finally, Israel. This is the tough one. I had to make the adult, rational decision not to go. I'm not going to sugarcoat it.....it was a hard, hard decision to make and I have really had a hard time with it. The main reasoning behind it is because I'm only in my first trimester, which is when miscarriage can occur. There would be 1-2 days during the trip where we would be away from medical care, and that was a little unsettling. It basically took my dad sitting in front of me and pointing out the risks. I was just so set on going. My sister Alyssa will be going in my place. Obviously, God's timing is perfect and this all happened for a reason, but I still feel sad and disappointed. I hope that doesn't make me sound like an irresponsible person. I made the decision with my child in mind. There will be other Israel trips, and I'll get to go then.
On the brighter side of things, Kurt decided to take the Israel money that we'll be getting back and take me to Disney World in October!!!!! :o) Obviously, this has taken some of the sting away--haha! For anyone who knows me or anything about me, nothing could make me feel happier. By that time I'll be in my second trimester, and traveling will be much easier. I thrilled to be able to go to my favorite place in the world, and get quality time with Kurt :o)
Needless to say, life has been crazy recently. In the last few days I've turned 23, changed major travel plans, and found out that we'll be adding a third member to our family....crazy! I earnestly ask for your prayers, especially until August 1, which will mark 12 weeks. I hate to even mention it, but every day that a pregnancy goes smoothly is a blessing. I decided to go ahead and share the news that I'm expecting because if something were to happen, God forbid, I would need your support and encouragement all the more. So I ask that you lift our family up in prayer and ask God's protection over our precious baby. We are beyond excited and feel so extremely blessed that God is allowing us to be parents. Thank you for all of your encouragement so far!
P.S. Just so she doesn't feel left out, Doris is doing a little better. We still have a red little eye, but we're making progress. She asks for your prayers as well :o)