But I want a dog!
I'm researching, thinking on it, and not being impulsive, but lately all I can think about are dogs who are older and in shelters who need homes. I literally can't stop thinking about it. Maybe this is the right step before a child...you know? Sounds obvious, but maybe it would fill the "hole" that I have because I want something to love, nurture, and care for, and get devotion/love in return. Doris has calmed down quite a bit and is much more manageable. She has her sweet and cuddly moments, but it's not in a cat's nature to be truly devoted and loyal like a dog. But I'm paranoid of getting a puppy that's crazy and not housebroken. I think it would be a good fit to get one who is older, and would appreciate a good home. I know I want something on the small to medium side. I can't handle large dogs...I feel like I don't have control! I've looked at the CARA website (carams.org) and have found several that interest me. Why do I feel like I need to take care of something and nurture it? Kurt and I aren't unhappy by any means. We are enjoying each other and love being together. I think I just want my pet to appreciate my love and love me back. Does that make any sense? Crazy, I know....but
I want a dog!