I feel like my posting has been kind of sporadic lately, and I'm sorry about that! There are just a ton of things going on right now so it's hard to keep my head on straight. :)
The main thing is that we will be moving ourselves. After getting the estimate from the moving company, we just think it's best that we do it ourselves. This all was decided kind of last-minute (at least in my terms of thinking), so I've had to get my ducks in a row to try and get organized in my head. Today it just got to all be too much (and Evy hasn't had a good nap in about a week), and I burst into tears. As in, sobbing. Haha!
Sidenote: I've been really emotional lately, which is strange. For instance, the other night I was browsing blogs. I've said it before, and I'll say it again--I don't read "sad" blogs. My heart can't take it. But somehow I stumbled upon Katie's blog, which you're probably familiar with. It's about the Rowe family who lost their little angel baby, Reese, after two days of life. For some reason I had never read their story. I was convulsing in sobs. It was the most heart-wrenching thing I have ever read. However, I walked away so uplifted. Katie is one of the most unwavering, peace-filled, God-centered women I have ever encountered. The way that she still praises the Lord even when her world is shattered; you talk about convicting! It really stuck out to me after all of the other "child-loss" stories I've heard. There was a difference in her grief, if that makes sense. Powerful. So after I read that I went to Evy's room to open her door (we open it at night to hear her), and she kind of stirred. I couldn't help myself--I went and picked her up and rocked her for as long as I could get away with. I sobbed and sobbed, because I was so thankful to God for her. And I prayed that if I'm ever faced with a crisis of that magnitude, I'll face it with the grace and godliness of Katie Rowe.
So, yes, I've been emotional lately. And today I just didn't handle the changes and stress well. I usually do better, but today I just didn't do it well. So I called my Dad, who was at a Cardinals game, and he basically had to give me therapy over the phone. Has anyone else been there!? He immediately got a game plan together and calmed me down. Game plans are my comfort food. So I think I know what direction I'm going. Now I just need to steer my brain in the "DIY" direction and start getting things done.
All that to say, you might not hear from me for a little bit. It will be sporadic, as it has been the last few days. But I'm still here, doing well, and we're excited about our move! These are emotions that come with moving, but I've had some good "closure" moments recently. We're ready to go and can't wait for this new chapter!
I'll check in soon! :)
