Evy and Mommy

Celebrating my first baby, and the little girl I will always cherish more than my life. We've had over two and half years together, and now it's time for Brother to come. I don't have the words to place on my emotions about Evy not being our only baby anymore, but as any mother who has had more children understands, I am very sad yet very happy. I absolutely know that your heart expands and that it's a natural and good thing to grow a family. However, I wouldn't be honest if I didn't say that I have a had a very, very, very hard time with Evy not being my only one anymore. It has nothing to do with Liam, or adoption. It's how I would feel if I was about to deliver my second child through childbirth. I am just dwelling on the past two and half years and just spending time with those memories for awhile. I am so, so thankful that I don't have to say goodbye to Evy. She's still here, and we will continue to grow. Maybe people don't expect that of me; that I would be having such a hard time. I didn't expect it of myself. But this has by far been the hardest emotion I've dealt with.

To celebrate Evy and who we are together, I put this together with the pictures that Shaelyne took of us this summer. I cherish these pictures; they will always be a treasure to me - just like Evy Kate. :)